FIRST DAYS' BLUES

It's funny after wanting so much change, it comes and suddenly we are in a deluge of mixed feelings. For someone like me right now, it's been drawn from the extensive paper-work that goes with public service (Oh, I wanted to know all the details I could understand so that I maximize my position), meeting new collleagues (I repeat every name and say I'd get to know each of them as time goes by ), familiarising myself with the environment and getting orientated in my job description.On the latter, I have found myself a bit apprehensive as to whether I'd get it right with the details peculiar to the new environment; more so that my previous job was less encompassing.

In between all of these personal  stuff, my thoughts are drawn into the other responsibilities I have to assume because of a higher pay-grade, that ever increasing thing that is called age, short-/long-term commitments I have hitherto made and the overall drift towards my greater life goals. Very interesting.

For each of these flirting concerns, I have been able to come up with answers that gave me peace; be it rationalizing the thoughts or flipping through a basic life principle I always had. Also, I have  found the friendliness and the good PR of people around me very encouraging.

What I am about is called settling in and I should not wish to skip it. Going through the processes of life and negotiating them well makes for immense stability and confidence in the future. I am on it.